I am accepting this place I am in, slowly but surely. It’s OK; I find myself saying that a lot lately. Trying to force creative expressions other than writing here isn’t happening for me. I mean, I really want to but there is an actual physical reaction I have when attempting to create. It’s a […]
Below you’ll find a link to a song originally recorded by Nine Inch Nails. After this remake the author said the song was written for Johnny Cash, it was his song now. It is a very powerful song and speaks from my deepest heart also. HURT- Johnny Cash
As always, this is my online journal, thoughts I have are processed in real-time between myself and whoever reads these posts. I just got home after dropping off my rent payment, stopping at a second hand store and putting some gas in the truck. As I was driving I went by a few churches and […]
We all deep down want to accomplish something special. At lease that’s what I believe. My struggle for worth and purpose is all tied up in it. To this point I have sabotaged my meaningful chances and that is a destructive thing, personally. It has eroded my strength and self-confidence. Now, even the job I […]
We gotta stop putting time limits on life and the places we find ourselves in. Its OK, it really is… Life has no formula for success in spite of numerous books and motivational speakers telling us so. There are no guarantees no matter what anyone says. If they say you do A, B, C and […]
YOU put a time frame on my healing. YOU are the one with sage advice. YOU still aren’t walking in my shoes. YOU still don’t understand the total devastation. YOU want me back at work. YOU want to act as if nothing ever happened. YOU. I need you to leave me alone. I need listeners […]
There are moments when life seems easy. Simple pleasures that block the pain and regret. Why can’t they be more often and less sporadic. I just had a moment, it was a relief, it honestly felt spectacular. Just as quickly though it faded. Do you feel this way? I cannot believe I am the only […]
My life used to be defined by music. I lived for it, strived to be better, rose and fell on how well I did. I was accepted as a musician and when I became rejected I saw no relevance to my life. Now, I pull my guitar from its case every other day or so […]
There’s nothing quite so precious as being able to rest. To relax free of the pangs of missed opportunities, pressure that is self induced, and feeling peace through and through. I am not quite there yet. I have always put a lot of pressure on myself, it has been misplaced though. Expectations that I carried […]
