I haven’t written anything much for the last month or more. The reason is pure depression. It’s been a struggle for these last few weeks to the extent I am listless and fatigued beyond the ability to function normally. I am working though I have taken quite a bit of time off recently. Thats about […]
The boy was confused, the man is defeated. The question that plagues me is whether it was my giving up or just me flat-out not having a chance from the start? The final result, either way you look at it is the same. I have become known as a person who gripes and complains but […]
I recently had someone comment that my blog was disappointing because all I did was complain and offer no suggestions for resolution to issues. Let me state once more and make it very clear, this blog is my online journal. Period. It is not my goal or responsibility to provide solutions or deeply thought out […]
I am a man of many years now. I was born in the sixties and a teen in the seventies. I got married when I was in my late twenties and proceeded to hurtle through life like we all do. Before I knew it I had expended all my energy and not found what I […]
It’s not that depression is a giant mystery. If anything it is rather predictable. Today I am depressed, my wife asked when it started and I don’t know. You see depression is always turned on, it is just a matter if the knob is at one, eleven, or somewhere in between. So I am dragging […]
Right now, in our country, the debate is raging over who should be our next president. One of the most polarizing issues is based on the ever caustic arguments over abortion rights. Well, I am going to put a twist on this disagreement that you have never considered, and I am going to be very […]
I have been off work for the last three weeks, and today is my last bit of freedom before returning. It has been a mental health vacation. No pay, just relief from the stresses of retail life in this Covid-infected year. Today I am taking inventory. How am I doing, really? Have I made progress […]
I write a blog and I have to admit it can be pretty negative. I am sixty years old and trying to do things the “nice” way seems to be a futile venture. Admittedly a more sharply worded posture of me against the world might be a losing proposition. No one likes a negative nellie […]
I dreamt last night that someone I used to know in my adult life sexually assaulted me. Now if you know my story you know it’s one of abuse when I was a child and adolescent, so this is a new sensory experience. I woke up right out of the attack and so remembered it […]
