Who Shall Help the Helpless?
I was wondering today… am I the helpless or the helper? I do not know the answer. Sometimes I feel […]
My Recent Posts
I have been relaying several stories about abuse, rape, pornography, etc. I believe it’s important to call attention to stories […]
Navy Submarine Sailors Kept ‘Rape’ Lists Of Female Colleagues, Military Probe Finds
Servicemen on the second submarine in the U.S. Navy to integrate female officers and sailors with its male crew kept […]
Our Perilous Lives
It occurs to me today, that each of us are on a most decidedly frantic and rather dangerous dash through […]
Tony Robbins, self-help guru, accused of sexual misconduct by multiple women
Tony Robbins, the self-help guru known for helping people conquer fears by walking over hot coals, is under fire himself […]
82 arrested in massive, multistate child exploitation sting
ATLANTA – A high school band director. A youth group leader. A fireman. A county leader. All are among the […]
Ohio State team doctor abused over 177 male students — and school leaders knew: Report
A now-dead Ohio State team doctor sexually abused at least 177 male students over nearly two decades, and university officials […]
New Title…Same Great and Improved Content!
It’s a complicated story but it resolves with a new name. I have blogged for years as the rip[ple] effect […]
A Game of Cat and Mouse
I know I said this blog was moving toward vlogging and other video content but I am not quite ready […]
Porn a public health crisis in US, Arizona and other states agree – Fox News
These efforts fall woefully short in the battle against pornography use. All I can say is, it’s a start. “We […]
New Content and a New Look! Coming Soon!
It’s been years in the making, four years to be exact. Soon I will be debuting a new site with […]
Seasons Change
I received the letter and avoided the phone call concerning the pathology results from my colonoscopy. My polyps were precancerous, […]
To The One Who Never Made A Mistake
You know who you are. I was feeling apologetic for my slips from the the realm of perfection until I […]
A New Chapter, Join Me!
It is time to take my blog to the next level. I cannot communicate as effectively as I want to […]
Sick
I don’t know what has happened but now I am officially sick. Two days post colonoscopy and they’ve both been […]
Crash
Today sucks. The good days came crashing down after a seraquel induced nights sleep. Groggy, foggy, negativity, a wasted day […]
Worried
Just when it seems my symptoms from this latest critical bout with multiple mental disorders is getting somewhat better…BAM! It’s […]
A Little on the Manic Side
I am definitely bordering on the high end of things lately. Latuda was introduced to my regime to address the […]
Self-Care…Just Do It! **UPDATE**
Today/Tomorrow is a most dreaded of self-care days. It was a full seven years ago that I had my first […]
U.S. youth suicides up after Netflix show, cause unclear: study
Youth suicide on the rise. (Video story included.) ***Also note that in the video it is mentioned of all suicides committed, […]
A Story…How He Loves
How He Loves Today… today I was reminded of this song and the story behind it, I was moved again. […]
Pettiness of Everything
Just a simple question. Why its our society so infatuated with the silliness of life, the petty, the inconsequential? At […]
The Other Side of Me-Inside my Bi polar Mind / Julie Kraft
This is a really good 15 minute video that clearly tells the story of a person with bi-polar disorder. Please […]
Losing the Sleep game
I can survive this. I’ve lost three full nights sleep this week. I know I’ve written about this twice already […]
Saved the Day
The day didn’t start very well. The meds are hurting my sleep as I’ve already written about recently. I added […]
2 Out of 3 is Usually Good
What a beautiful day, too bad I will spend it in a fog, boy do I wish I was that […]
Whats Next?
Do you ever feel like a “fish out of water?” Uncomfortable in your own skin? Wandering around aimlessly? As if […]
The Occasional Good Day
I just wonder what subliminal or actual thoughts or events make a day better than another? I’m not referring to […]
Only The Shadow Knows
As my case of Bi-polar Depression slogs on, a new medication is being introduced to my regime. This drug is […]
Keep it Simple
I had written something earlier today but I’m afraid it would have caused a furor. Simply put….I better not comment […]
Comments to My Blog
I encourage the experience, thoughts and expressions of others to the writing I share. It’s important for me because I […]
Easter Sunday from the Way Back Machine
2nd Chapter of Acts – Easter Song
Not Safe
When the wounds are deep, no amount of getting away will fix the pain. This must be understood or triggers […]
Sometimes..
As hard as you try the thing you are trying to do just wont work! My solution? Pick it […]
The Lost Generation
I’m not sure what the demographics say but I believe that on just about every level of human interaction, it’s […]
Parents Accuse D.C. Synagogue of Enabling ‘Systemic, Regular’ Sexual Abuse of Preschoolers
A group of parents are suing a prominent Washington D.C. synagogue, alleging one preschool teacher sexually abused eight toddlers for […]
It’s Gone
There’s this attribute of life that I think is pretty important. It’s a baseline at which we can fully function […]
E x h a u s t e d
Running on empty, not enough in me to even write this post. I’ll leave it there for now.
What?
UPDATE: I have a little below average hearing for my age and the tinnitus is permanent. I have to get […]
I Miss My Violin
It’s been a tough road. I have experienced a lot of financial challenges and mental ones that had me sell […]
Post-birthday Update
It was another memorable birthday as number 59 resulted in 2 cards received, my brother and my wife. I’m not […]
Empty
Have you ever felt completely hollow, like there is no one inside your body? It’s as if you had vacated […]
The Feel-good Comeback
I have been waiting a long time for something that happened today. In the back of my mind, biding my […]
Fork in the Road
If you’ve followed me at all you may already know where I am going with this. I feel I am […]
Portrait of a paedophile: UK’s most prolific paedophile convicted
This is the story of a pedophile who groomed and abused children from 6 months old to 12 years of […]
Alexandra’s Suicide….please watch!
Alexandra Valoras was a straight-A student, class officer and robotics whiz. But her journals told a different story, with 200 […]
Personal Status Report
I write a lot, and I am all over the place emotionally, psychologically, so I thought it appropriate to keep […]
That Nagging feeling
I have been doing some study the last few days about mental health, euthanasia and suicide. I am at a […]
It Could Be Worse
Watching this documentary about the history of mental health in Britian makes me feel better about my treatment plan. Those […]
Birthday Greetings to….Me!
Whoa! Looks like I will make it to 59 after all! I am as shocked as anyone to be sure, […]
I Have A Name For This Life
I was thinking today what I would call this journey I am on. Some days are actually OK, while many […]
Thrifting Therapy Tomorrow!
Join me!?! Works wonders for the mental health challenges one faces. Vinyl, cassettes, old boom boxes, old stereo components!!! It […]
That Didn’t Work So Well
As I said last night, I doubled up on my sleep med so I could just be out of it […]
7pm Time For Sleep
Depression creates a compulsion for additional sleep. I got up at 9 today and I am going down at 7pm. […]
Time is Not a Healer
This is an old wives tale, I can assure you. Only those who have suffered immense levels of unforgiving pain […]
Jessica’s Tree…A Story of Suicide, a Story of Hope
If someone you care about struggles with mental illness and/or is suicidal, have the courage to spend 45 minutes that […]
Where Is the Justice?
Why do victims of violence have to get over stuff? Why are those who perpetrate violence getting away with it? […]
I Made It
I made it through another day. Well, there is still another hour and fifty-six minutes. How can I sum up […]
My New Do
In honor of my arrival at psycho/inmate status, I have shaved all my hair off. This is me in acceptance […]
My Journal from April 4
I have always been good at bringing myself down. But this current episode has a different texture. It’s as if […]
Its Been 25 years…Remembering Kurt Cobain
Nirvana manager Danny Goldberg opens up about Kurt Cobain’s final intervention before tragic suicide April 5 marks 25 years since […]
Derailed So Quickly
Any bold declarations I make are shot down by the reality of depression. I want to do something worthwhile but […]
Today
I have been wanting to write some music for a while, just haven’t been motivated enough. I think today I […]
D E A T H
I have been preoccupied with death the last few weeks. As I feel more and more sapped of strength, the […]
Thrifting Therapy
Well, oh well. I have a physical scheduled for this morning. I am years overdue for it, so I guess […]
When You Are Crushed
This is my second blog post today. I have done nothing but watch YouTube videos and Netflix. Coming to face […]
Please, Don’t Defend Joe Biden!
There is no excuse for Joe Biden to behave as he does. A recent quote said, “he is extremely affectionate, […]
Confused?
I am very confused right now. Like anyone, I want my life to matter. I want what I have learned […]
Another Sunday
People all across the country today are gathering in their chosen places of worship to express their beliefs together. Praying, […]
Tortoise or Hare?
Processing mental health can come at different paces with varying results and that’s perfectly fine. We, and those around us […]
The Guilt Machine
Does anyone else have a motor that never stops running? One that produces an upset stomach, anxiety, a sense of […]
A Moment of Silence
Lets us remember the silent scores of those who have experienced childhood sexual abuse. There are many who have quieted […]
Little…
Hopelessness is a dangerous feeling. It can poison and destroy a persons entire being. For me, I see hopelessness translate […]
Changes Brewing
As a previous post stated, financial difficulties seem to mirror mental health problems. I find myself in this type of […]
Thinking Bigger
It’s weird, I feel like I am going into another phase of life. It began when I looked at my […]
Debt and Mental Health
“People with mental health issues are three-and-a-half times more likely to be in problem debt than those without such conditions, […]
Today..
Today, this is the sense of clutter and disorientation that fill’s my mind. Confusion and a severe lack of sense. […]
This is Where it all Began
***Let me preface this blog with a warning.*** I am not going to soften the graphic images I relate too […]
Psychiatry’s Guessing Game
So will I be driven to do something desperate before my mental illness is seriously addressed, or will my desperate […]
N U M B
Why can I not feel some days? My mind goes fanatically wild, but at other times I am blank. Like […]
The swamp
It’s dangerous, full of deadly creatures, yet the sun sifting through the trees and the warm humid temperatures belie the […]
Some Days it’s…
It’s OK to not get dressed It’s OK to retreat It’s OK to think, just think and not act […]
Adding stress to Mental Health Sufferers
Negativity is easy for those of use who have mental health issues. There is no shortage of confusion to draw […]
Slow Motion
I am sitting in my office and looking out the window at a mid-march Sunday that is overcast and bleak. […]
Yes, I am jealous of a 12 Year Old.
Today, splashed all over the media are the protests of students against Global Warming, These children are skipping school and […]
The Un-Reality of Prescription Medicine
Have you ever watched, and I know you have, the commercials about any one of thousands of meds that promise […]
Day to Day
It all runs together, the emotions and beliefs I direct toward myself. agony numb angry frustration fear failure contempt guilt […]
Imagine a world..
Today, I heard a little piece on NPR about a zero carbon city. You know, all the imagination of a […]
I am…
I am a hallucination to others, an image fleeting, a voice like a ghost, a forgotten past. I am a […]
Mental Health and Stupid Comments made by Charles Barkley
See the link below. Charles Barkley and Ignorance of Mental Health
Frustrated with Professionals and Everyone Else
Why is it that a psychiatrist you meet with for an hour, barely enough time to get the basics, tells […]
Tomorrow, a New Psychiatrist
I am sitting here tonight reviewing some thoughts before I see my new psychiatrist tomorrow. My therapist asked me to […]
Therapy Today
So today I continue my quest for mental health with another therapy session. Today we are going to do something […]
Michael Jackson in the Spotlight Again
Michael Jackson. Legendary Icon of the entertainment industry, beloved the world over, soft-spoken, demanding perfection, success beyond most humans in […]
…a Real Life.
Over the years I have been subjected to some negative feedback for sharing my life, and doing so with an […]
Politics, Religion et al and their Self-Serving Agenda’s
I am fed up with the childish behavior that defines politics in America today. I am sick of the coverage […]
When Will I Find It?
I’ve searched high and low, spent decades in looking for “it”, still it eludes me like a sad joke. So […]
“So-Called” Psychiatric Care
Yesterday morning I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. Well, if you can call disinterested, mocking, dismissive, uncaring, and an […]
Should I or shouldn’t I?
When I write it is problematic for me. It causes people to either freak out or say good job. This […]
It’s not really there…is it
The last few weeks have been an increasingly unpredictable flow of a raging river in my head, as I am […]
Contradiction
Ok, I am going to call myself out on a contradiction that is staring me in the face. Over the years […]
What day is it?
I’ve lost track of many things with memory issues increasing. I can only assume already bad memory circuits are further […]
A Victim, is a Victim, is a Victim
Yesterday, I was challenged to stop remaining a victim in my claims of mental illness and laying part of the […]
Bi-Polar, Meds and Survival
I have discovered a new danger of mental illness. When you are Bi-Polar there are certain things that go along […]
The Curse of Ever Wandering
The story begins nowhere, travels to nowhere, and ends up nowhere. It’s not that life isn’t eventful it’s just that […]
My Mental Health Journey
This story begins with a bit of a on-the-job’ meltdown in which I was told I was mega-failure, and my […]
I Hate This World
Angry, hateful, judgmental, hypocritical , demeaning, spiteful, unforgiving, revengeful, ignorant and so much more. This world has driven us to […]
The Slow Crumble
I have a history. I was born into a sexually abusive family and the scarring hasn’t gone away. I am […]
Hypocritical or Just Plain Confused?
People today are less hypocritical and are more realistically faced with the conundrum of what to do with their lives. […]
Tweets, James Gunn and the Power of Popularity
If you haven’t read the controversial tweets from James Gunn, take a moment and find them, they are easily available. […]
Don’t You Forget About Me
We live in a society of tragedies, abuse, wickedness and perversion. This is nothing new though it is undoubtedly more […]
The Disturbing Trend of Leaving Everything to God
Ok, here a few observations: Christians are busy, especially Christian leaders in any capacity. Much is left to the intervention […]
Stark Realities
Where’s the Help?
There is a commercial running during the NCAA Basketball Tournament. It is for Dove Mens care. The ad is here. The […]
The Day That Life Stopped
It was a Sunday just after Easter, when everything came crashing down. You’d think that putting it in the rear view […]
A lesson from Kill Bill
A lonely person will make very poor choices when desperate for any sort of intimacy. Combine the loneliness with an […]
Grid Girls…GONE!
This week the F1 series of auto racing announced the following: “While the practice of employing grid girls has been […]
The Church is… the Worst!
Dear church, If you want to keep sticking your head in the sand, don’t read the linked story. “…Biblical teachings […]
Social media responsibility in the current sexual harassment climate
I am not on any social media platforms, I merely glean from an external perspective and test the temperature of […]
this is why..
People kill themselves. There is nothing worth living for, more specifically, there isn’t enough good to outweigh the incredible pain. […]
sick
I am sick of living. Its all the hiding and subterfuge, the pain and the never quieted lack of peace. […]
What You’ll Never Understand
It’s the simple things that freak me out. Stuff that seems everyday, easy-going, fun-those are the things that stress me […]
The Rush to Judgment, Judged
Found an article this morning that I have to agree with. It questions the bold stroke of judgement that is […]
The True Problem
The true problem isn’t Donald Trump, it isn’t all the perpetrators of sexual misconduct, it’s not our overcrowded prisons; it […]
Lifetime Sentences for the Abused
Remembering the times I was told to get over it, to forgive my offender and to just move on from […]
Bipolar Signs…
If this were a criminal investigation, the research would be starting to reveal the truth. As I analyze the data […]
Roots, Not Just Effects
We are so stupid to think we can sexualize nearly everything and then remain in control of our desires. I […]
The Only Fight That Matters
When you disappoint others, it is difficult to win them back. When you disappoint yourself there may be no getting […]
Stop Politicizing Sexual Abuse
The latest allegation of sexual misconduct came out in the last 24 hours when long-time NBC Today Show host Matt […]
Not Surprising, At All!
Every single day a new allegation of sexual abuse is coming out from all corners of the American landscape. Entertainers, […]
The Bipolar Question
It has become a topic of conversation in our home, wondering at the fact I might have bipolar disorder. That […]
A Must Read…
Everyone is Addicted To Something I wrote this blog on another site I use. I felt it worthy of […]
Being Too Nice
My wife commented yesterday that she was happy I got my meds adjusted because there is a palpable difference in […]
No Such Thing
Happy endings. The crutch of a thousand feel good movies. I really hate them…why? Because for the most part they […]
Begin and End
Life is a series of beginnings and endings. We will often have no control of the the circumstances of these […]
My Shrinking Life
We are all born into a whole world of possibilities, they lie right there before each of us. I am […]
Soup for Thought
We, as humanity, are good at defining what is right and wrong and then judging based on those opinions. Often […]
Medicating is Medicating
Some will say you are a sissy or a loser because you medicate. Unfortunately, some things are so horrific that […]
..slipping…
Descending, ever so slowly, almost un-noticable…a little less engaged, less hopeful, more numb and faithless. Its harder to move, more […]
Secrets and Lies-Protecting the Abuser
I have repeatedly watched the 2015 movie “Spotlight’ and read much concerning the epidemic of abusive priests in the Catholic […]
The Personal Nuclear Devastation of Sexual Abuse
North Korea has been brandishing its nuclear power and is becoming a growing threat to the world. Our President has […]
Morning Revelations
I used to write semi-prolifically; I started out very positive and hopeful but you can clearly see the downward arc […]
The “Shaming” Phenomenon
Is it solely because I am in my 50’s that I am dumbfounded by this epidemic? I grew up in a […]
In Your Mind
Spouting pat sayings are nothing new, whether within the church or without. We all have a few up our sleeve […]
Anonymous Blog: Losing My Religion
I found this article interesting, it speaks to much of what I have felt the last couple of years. It […]
In the Moment
It has been a difficult transition going back to work and I haven’t been writing much lately but just wanted […]
Wearing Authenticity Proudly
First, confession time: I have found myself lingering at the well of authenticity without moving into the deeper heart change that precedes […]
Sometimes I Cry
That feeling when you know you are missing out on some special times. When it is your own fault that you […]
Found in the Finding
It is refreshing to live in the light. Life is invigorating when we aren’t clouded over with a bunch of sin and […]
Back to Work
I have been on injury leave from my job since December of 2014. For the mathematically challenged like me, that’s just about […]
