I am feeling that my return to work is going to cause me to be sucked into the rat race and tear the will from me to write. I have lost the battle for my mental health, and the strength I have will now be poured into the daily grind. Going back in a transitional sense, […]
It’s been a hell of a fight the last year as I have battled for treatment and my rights as a person plagued by mental illness.. But I relent and say uncle. I am tired, nothing left in the tank. I want to be creative but there is very little left with which to operate. […]
Spelling, yeah and proofreading…not strengths for me. I usually hit the publish button then I look it over. I apologize for the typos. I am just not a patient person and that’s how you can tell! Thank you for being a patron or occasional; visitor to my blog.
In just a couple days I will mark the one year anniversary of going into treatment for depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. At that time I had lost all hope, I had given up, my life had caught up with me and this time I listened. I was suicidal, desperate and at the lowest point […]
Being a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, I am keenly aware of the legal proceedings against the Catholic Church. It came to light in the early 2000’s that there was rampant and unchecked sexual abuse of minors worldwide by priests. Last night I watched nearly three hours of a former priests testimony when he was […]
This latest chapter of my life is soon to be concluded. Throughout the last few days new developments have crowded into things and are forcing my hand. I am going back to work, at least on a smaller scale. My therapist wants me to test the waters again. I will be returning mid-month to a very […]
I feel like a burden on my wife, my employer, and society in general. I have had some sort of job since I was 15 until now. But now… I can’t work due to overwhelming anxiety. My ability to function day to day is impeded by severe depression. There is also the danger of another […]
I am tired of words. Trying to make my case when I am too exhausted to put them together anymore. The problem is I will be seeing a new psychiatrist this week and I have to use my words…again. It isn’t a one and done deal, its a constantly morphing set of symptoms and an […]
I have let myself and everyone else down. With my latest troubles trying to get treatment I feel like its what I have done wrong to mess things up. In a sense it’s me thinking I have sabotaged my own mental illness. How else can I explain what has been happening? I am so frustrated […]
