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Recent Posts
It Went Sideways
I started a gofundme page to pay for the retainer to get psychological forensic testing. People came together to give and I was able to get the testing done by putting $1100 up. Then came the phone call today Possibly the worst news I could have received. While Pine Rest believes my symptoms of depression, […]
I am Sad Today
Feeling a little overwhelmed by it all. Life. The sadness is churning inside me. So many emotions mixed together and swirling around. The smallest responsibility causes me to become panicky. I have been fighting for a year to keep getting paid and I am exhausted by it. Should I be better? Is there any way […]
Mental Health Documentary
Stress is the classic ailment of the 21st century and accepted as part of our working lives. In fact, stress is generally perceived as a barometer of success. Dynamic professionals seem keen to publicise the fact that their lives are blighted by this modern anguish. In contrast to socially acceptable moaning about minor stresses and […]
It’s Important to Clarify Some Things
When you write and ramble on like I do it can muddy the perceptions of what you are trying to say. I admit to being all over the board but thats just me dealing with stuff day to day on my journey. I felt it was time to clarify some things. I don’t blame God […]
The Music was Silenced
As a child I started playing the violin in the 5th grade. I played in the junior orchestra, a community orchestra and in college as concertmaster of the symphony orchestra. Years later I taught myself to play guitar and began playing in a worship band. That continued for decades as I played in larger and […]
The Memorial that Moves Forward
Originally published in September of 2016 It’s a fine line, knowing when to move on. Tragedy has a way of stopping us in our tracks, we memorialize it and are taken back to the event in a real and tangible way. Its as if we are reliving the horror once again. This activity can serve […]
Anxiety at Any Time
Recognizing today how much anxiety plays a part in my daily life. Shoot, I am going through a perfectly “normal” day and the stuff is beating on me. I don’t consider anxiety the biggest contributor to my condition, but today it is. The fact is that everyone deals with anxiety, it’s actually an essential part […]
Lets Briefly Talk about Suicide
Have you ever had something happen that you say to yourself, that’s not a coincidence? I did yesterday when I debated whether or not to buy an incredibly shrinking local Sunday paper. Short story, I did, and there was an article that I am glad I found. The story is about suicide and in case […]
The Beginning of the Journey
I appreciate the encouragement to write. I keep writing here as I can but to do something more serious, such as a book, isn’t possible at this point. I live everyday under enormous weight. Just to stand takes an unbelievable amount of strength. Not bragging or whining, just saying. I still struggle mightily with the […]
