I recently had someone comment that my blog was disappointing because all I did was complain and offer no suggestions for resolution to issues. Let me state once more and make it very clear, this blog is my online journal. Period. It is not my goal or responsibility to provide solutions or deeply thought out […]
Recent Posts
I Can’t Believe
I am a man of many years now. I was born in the sixties and a teen in the seventies. I got married when I was in my late twenties and proceeded to hurtle through life like we all do. Before I knew it I had expended all my energy and not found what I […]
Understanding Depression
It’s not that depression is a giant mystery. If anything it is rather predictable. Today I am depressed, my wife asked when it started and I don’t know. You see depression is always turned on, it is just a matter if the knob is at one, eleven, or somewhere in between. So I am dragging […]
I Should Have Been Aborted
Right now, in our country, the debate is raging over who should be our next president. One of the most polarizing issues is based on the ever caustic arguments over abortion rights. Well, I am going to put a twist on this disagreement that you have never considered, and I am going to be very […]
Today
I have been off work for the last three weeks, and today is my last bit of freedom before returning. It has been a mental health vacation. No pay, just relief from the stresses of retail life in this Covid-infected year. Today I am taking inventory. How am I doing, really? Have I made progress […]
Civil Tone Please?
I write a blog and I have to admit it can be pretty negative. I am sixty years old and trying to do things the “nice” way seems to be a futile venture. Admittedly a more sharply worded posture of me against the world might be a losing proposition. No one likes a negative nellie […]
I Had a Dream
I dreamt last night that someone I used to know in my adult life sexually assaulted me. Now if you know my story you know it’s one of abuse when I was a child and adolescent, so this is a new sensory experience. I woke up right out of the attack and so remembered it […]
Pause Button
I am in the middle of a two week leave of absence from work. I needed a break from everything, I work in grocery. I was getting very angry with customers not complying with mask regulations. Due to the virus I was spending two to three hours a day outside, cleaning and sanitizing carts. I […]
The Big 60
I am trying to figure out why I have a lack of motivation to improve myself, set goals, etc. Is it the meds used to calm my bipolar swings? It seems so. I have always gotten up when knocked down, every time. Until now. I think its the meds plus being 60 and pretty darn […]
