Where do I begin here? The financial strain is monumental. The cooperation you get from doctors is sporadic. Dealing with short term disability insurers is the worst. The depression you are already under is further intensified by the financial strain. I have to be the push to get anything done, if I don’t constantly call […]
No light, no freedom, no peace, no rest, no life.
Instead of the usual use of words you would normally find here, please click the link. You will hear a piece by J.S. Bach that musically demonstrates the mind of one struggling to put pieces together and make sense of the world. It’s a whirlwind and a frenzy all the time, 24/7 and there is […]
A well-known Christian leader has walked away from the faith and the Christians be trippin’! Maybe you haven’t noticed that people have been leaving the church since well, the beginning of churches. If there is any blame laid at the feet of Christians they rise up like a wounded tiger and scratch and claw to save […]
This morning I had a thought slip into my mind out of the blue when it comes to processing my life. I just want to make sense of what my life was and has become. The emotions quickly came and went but the theme will linger all day if not longer. Why was I abused? […]
This phrase stuck in me today. I watched a commercial about a kid who was getting bad grades in English. The solution presented was merely to work harder and in the end the author was signing a copy of his book for his former teacher. The American dream however is often more of a nightmare, […]
I have this weird fascination with watching motorcycle rebuilding videos. Taking that old used and abused bike and bringing it back to life. I was sitting in therapy today and wondering out-loud if there is a reason for this, one beyond just passing all these hours I have. Just maybe there is, maybe. When you […]
“During any given year in America, one in five adults (nearly 44 million people) experiences mental illness—10 million of these people finding their lives fundamentally impacted by their internal, invisible maladies.” JOHN PAVLOVITZ The Mental Health Crisis of This Unhinged Presidency
Beneath the arguments for the reality of my mental illness, behind the cloak that protects my abuser, away from the religious environments that denied me justice, exists a toxic anger simmering constantly. I am angry. I ….am ….. angry. I fight a battle every day. I fight ignorance, apathy, acceptance, judgement, hate, condemnation, fear, blame, […]
