Sometimes we can go about our lives and be disconnected from the reality of who we are. We have a past that is riddled with pain and mistakes, and we just want it to stay there and not be part of what people see. The problem with that is, people still see it, whether or not you think they do! It comes out it so many ways that we don’t even consider because we hide behind the “worse things” that others do.
We spend enormous amounts of energy on this force-field that keeps the questions out and the secrets in.
It is an Eminence Front.
I have resided behind that wall for most of my life. A childhood stained by abuse, and a trail of brokenness in my wake ever since. I have been the hypocrite you’ve heard so much about professing one thing but in secret doing another. I have been the person constantly on the run, trying to battle fires I started. It all caught up with me one day, and that whole impressive structure collapsed under the weight of a lifetime of hiding. I am not alone, many of you are right there too. Bondage takes many forms but I don’t have to tell you that, you already know it so well.
There was an old slogan for the Peace Corps, “The toughest job you’ll ever love,” and that’s what it is. If you’ve been hiding it is really challenging to step into the light, but the benefits are worth it all. I don’t care what it is you are concealing, for how long, or how bad you think it is, it is time to be free! It’ll be work, it’ll hurt, it will cost you a whole bunch, however, what you gain in the end will cause you to ask why it took so long to see, and more importantly, act upon.
This revelation has been costly. The crushing truth of what I was for so long, the people I hurt over the years, the reputation of my dear Father in heaven that I soiled, its all right there.
I believe in a God of grace and mercy. When I look in the Bible I see how time after time, God took the broken, sinful, selfish, lusting, murderers, adulterers, and gave them new life. I see people repenting and being used mightily of God to reach His people, and this world.
What do we do with that today, do we believe it? OR… do we continue to skulk in the shadows feeling unworthy to do His will? Do we hide what we have been in hopes that no one will see it, and accept us? Do we disregard the calling of God so as to avoid the inevitable judgment and questions of men? Do we decide to live a life of anonymity and quietly go about our business? (tail between our legs)
Are you afraid that everything you have and are will be destroyed by, the truth? How deceived are we if we feel truth is the enemy!?
When you get tired of the lies in your life, such as excusing your bad behavior, always trying to patch up relationships, starting a new job because you lost another one, moving to another town, another marriage, starting over…again; when you finally grow tired of all of it that is the point at which hope really begins. That’s when you’re true life will start. Do you know that what God has spoken to you isn’t as shaky as your so-called shameful past. It is rock solid brothers and sisters!
29 For God’s gifts and his call can never be withdrawn; he will never go back on his promises.
30 Once you were rebels against God, but when the Jews refused his gifts God was merciful to you instead. 31 And now the Jews are the rebels, but some day they, too, will share in God’s mercy upon you. 32 For God has given them all up to sin[b] so that he could have mercy upon all alike.
33 Oh, what a wonderful God we have! How great are his wisdom and knowledge and riches! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his methods! 34 For who among us can know the mind of the Lord? Who knows enough to be his counselor and guide? 35 And who could ever offer to the Lord enough to induce him to act? 36 For everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power, and everything is for his glory. To him be glory evermore. Romans 11:29-36 (MSG)
Free yourself from the bondage’s of this world, come out of hiding and live in the glorious truth of Gods grace and mercy!