Justifying Mental Disease

I am getting weary of having to explain over and over what I am going through. I really just need a permanent resolution. Any kind of permanent resolution.

I can’t do this. It is not enough I cannot function, they want me to hyper function. I struggle with having enough purpose to live and they’re wanting a pile of paperwork for every little thing.

If this is a portence of the remainder of my days, no thanks.

Will I just have to go broke and live in abject poverty? Why compensate someone who won’t return to work? My options are growing more and more limited.

Tell me why I must live because I am running out of reasons to care.

3 Comments

  1. I feel your pain even through your writing.
    It is a constant battle for most suffering with mental issues.
    All I can offer is try to hold on. There are people in your life who really do care about you.

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    1. Thanks, there are people in my life who care. However, the exhaustion mentally, physically and emotionally never abates. This is why every now and then I am so weak I don’t want to live. All the love in the world can’t fix that.

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