Don’t Wanna Feel

I have never abused drugs or alcohol and never intend too, but I sure would like to medicate these feelings away.

If I had some positive thoughts it would be nice, something to look forward to but I don’t.

My life is pretty much behind me now. Maybe I should look at it like that…whats done is done and just relax and accept what is left.

I know life isn’t over but it feels like it is for all intents and purposes.

Life without meaning isn’t worthwhile. Energy that is sapped leaves nothing to move forward with. Work is what’s left. Thats nothing to motivate life.

Reality. Not over dramatic. I have lost the ability to get up off my ass again. I am afraid I will just end up failing again so it is the safe way to live. If you can call it living.

3 Comments

  1. I understand the way you are feeling and sorry to hear you are feeling that way. It is tough, especially given the current circumstances of the world around us, but it will get better. We just have to have faith that it will.

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