I am tired. I have grown weary of the daily grind. I don’t mean the work-a-day world, no, the effort of living itself. What it takes to move, to squelch the voices of negativity. To justify a continuance of life. The reminders of misdeeds and missteps, the inability to emerge from the thick smoke of […]
Now that I am integrating back into the work world I can feel that I am desiring to guard my seclusion. Work is frenetic and exhausting, people everywhere, demands constantly, and it wears me out. I don’t want to socialize, I want to go home and be in my room. I am not thinking about […]
I just want to take a fantastical moment right now. One of those little wishes we all make from time to time. There is nothing to hope that my wish could possibly come true but I will nevertheless make its utterance. I am going to close my eyes and remove everything from my mind. Everything […]
Try to imagine living in fear that at some point, you are going to destroy something important again. Maybe you know that which I speak of. There can be no rest, no joy, no sense of accomplishment. Just dread-when will “it” happen. I’m not sure that’s why I take the medications I do but I […]
I am feeling that my return to work is going to cause me to be sucked into the rat race and tear the will from me to write. I have lost the battle for my mental health, and the strength I have will now be poured into the daily grind. Going back in a transitional sense, […]
It’s been a hell of a fight the last year as I have battled for treatment and my rights as a person plagued by mental illness.. But I relent and say uncle. I am tired, nothing left in the tank. I want to be creative but there is very little left with which to operate. […]
Spelling, yeah and proofreading…not strengths for me. I usually hit the publish button then I look it over. I apologize for the typos. I am just not a patient person and that’s how you can tell! Thank you for being a patron or occasional; visitor to my blog.
In just a couple days I will mark the one year anniversary of going into treatment for depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. At that time I had lost all hope, I had given up, my life had caught up with me and this time I listened. I was suicidal, desperate and at the lowest point […]
Being a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, I am keenly aware of the legal proceedings against the Catholic Church. It came to light in the early 2000’s that there was rampant and unchecked sexual abuse of minors worldwide by priests. Last night I watched nearly three hours of a former priests testimony when he was […]
