It has been another long break from writing, just waiting on a reason to put something out there. It’s time. I have worked the last five years for a company that deals with the public. Every day was a new challenge and truly never the same. I was in a management position and had, in […]
The boy was confused, the man is defeated. The question that plagues me is whether it was my giving up or just me flat-out not having a chance from the start? The final result, either way you look at it is the same. I have become known as a person who gripes and complains but […]
It’s not that depression is a giant mystery. If anything it is rather predictable. Today I am depressed, my wife asked when it started and I don’t know. You see depression is always turned on, it is just a matter if the knob is at one, eleven, or somewhere in between. So I am dragging […]
Right now, in our country, the debate is raging over who should be our next president. One of the most polarizing issues is based on the ever caustic arguments over abortion rights. Well, I am going to put a twist on this disagreement that you have never considered, and I am going to be very […]
I have been off work for the last three weeks, and today is my last bit of freedom before returning. It has been a mental health vacation. No pay, just relief from the stresses of retail life in this Covid-infected year. Today I am taking inventory. How am I doing, really? Have I made progress […]
I dreamt last night that someone I used to know in my adult life sexually assaulted me. Now if you know my story you know it’s one of abuse when I was a child and adolescent, so this is a new sensory experience. I woke up right out of the attack and so remembered it […]
I am in the middle of a two week leave of absence from work. I needed a break from everything, I work in grocery. I was getting very angry with customers not complying with mask regulations. Due to the virus I was spending two to three hours a day outside, cleaning and sanitizing carts. I […]
I am trying to figure out why I have a lack of motivation to improve myself, set goals, etc. Is it the meds used to calm my bipolar swings? It seems so. I have always gotten up when knocked down, every time. Until now. I think its the meds plus being 60 and pretty darn […]
Things have settled into a steady pace now. My medications seem to be working their magic by keeping me stable and sane. No great expectations but conversely no deep depression. It feels like the best things could possibly be. Maybe its just a beautiful summers day that helps. Maybe it is spending less time thinking […]
