I am for once at a loss for words. What was and is and will be are colliding and it’s a bit of a mess right now. So much is going through my mind, I had to delete a couple hasty blogs and rethink myself. Seems to me I just wrote a song a few days […]
Upon self reflection in the few months since returning to work, time and distance has revealed some important things. It feels like I am wasting away a minute at a time. I am not very good at self care. Working and not showering are a bad combination, and being apathetic about taking my medications. Days […]
I wanted to take a moment and thank you for a great year at alwaysrisealways! It makes me happy to say that last year I received as many views as all previous years combined. I am hoping the content continues to be worthy of your time and consideration. Thanks, Chris
In the world of ongoing medical issues comes the creation of maintenance days. These are in place to make special allowances for recurring problems that interfere with working. I have these in place for the next 6 or 8 months at one to two a month. I have used one since returning to work but I […]
This is a tough concept to consider. There have been decades of pain so what makes you/me think this year will be any different? For me, 2019 had me in out-patient hospitalization, many therapy appointments and the introduction of a few medications for good measure. It had a psychiatrist declare me to be OK when […]
I would love it if I could just escape my mind for a couple days and be able to enjoy the holiday season. But I have come to realize that’s not possible. Yesterday it all snuck up on me again and dredged up every wrong thing I have done, especially to others, and it sits […]
Life flows like a river with all the obstacles one would expect to encounter along the way. Rocks, trees and garbage dumped into its fluidity. Sometimes the water flows very slowly and at other times it rampages at a breakneck speed. It can be fraught with danger and also very boring depending on where you […]
There is nothing in me, I am a hollow man. Empty and unable to feel anything passionately, I walk this Earth as a meaningless and nearly invisible entity. My ability to give anything is not in question when there’s no substance from which to draw. This is getting to be a frustrating way to live. […]
Below you’ll find a link to a song originally recorded by Nine Inch Nails. After this remake the author said the song was written for Johnny Cash, it was his song now. It is a very powerful song and speaks from my deepest heart also. HURT- Johnny Cash
