I am feeling that my return to work is going to cause me to be sucked into the rat race and tear the will from me to write. I have lost the battle for my mental health, and the strength I have will now be poured into the daily grind. Going back in a transitional sense, […]
It’s been a hell of a fight the last year as I have battled for treatment and my rights as a person plagued by mental illness.. But I relent and say uncle. I am tired, nothing left in the tank. I want to be creative but there is very little left with which to operate. […]
In just a couple days I will mark the one year anniversary of going into treatment for depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. At that time I had lost all hope, I had given up, my life had caught up with me and this time I listened. I was suicidal, desperate and at the lowest point […]
This latest chapter of my life is soon to be concluded. Throughout the last few days new developments have crowded into things and are forcing my hand. I am going back to work, at least on a smaller scale. My therapist wants me to test the waters again. I will be returning mid-month to a very […]
I feel like a burden on my wife, my employer, and society in general. I have had some sort of job since I was 15 until now. But now… I can’t work due to overwhelming anxiety. My ability to function day to day is impeded by severe depression. There is also the danger of another […]
I am tired of words. Trying to make my case when I am too exhausted to put them together anymore. The problem is I will be seeing a new psychiatrist this week and I have to use my words…again. It isn’t a one and done deal, its a constantly morphing set of symptoms and an […]
I have let myself and everyone else down. With my latest troubles trying to get treatment I feel like its what I have done wrong to mess things up. In a sense it’s me thinking I have sabotaged my own mental illness. How else can I explain what has been happening? I am so frustrated […]
I realized something today when it comes to dealing with mental illness. I have been trying to remain and appear normal in every way. I haven’t been dealing with the issue, at all. I make every appointment, every call, every last detail I am on top of. I have been expending all the energy I […]
Words, there are none that can adequately explain my frustration.
