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August 18, 2020August 18, 2020therippleeffect70x7

Today

I have been off work for the last three weeks, and today is my last bit of freedom before returning. It has been a mental health vacation. No pay, just relief from the stresses of retail life in this Covid-infected year. Today I am taking inventory. How am I doing, really? Have I made progress […]

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December 3, 2019December 3, 2019therippleeffect70x7

Is There Something I should Be Doing?

As always, this is my online journal, thoughts I have are processed in real-time between myself and whoever reads these posts. I just got home after dropping off my rent payment, stopping at a second hand store and putting some gas in the truck. As I was driving I went by a few churches and […]

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October 11, 2019October 11, 2019therippleeffect70x7

Fading Into Oblivion

I am feeling that my return to work is going to cause me to be sucked into the rat race and tear the will from me to write. I have lost the battle for my mental health, and the strength I have will now be poured into the daily grind. Going back in a transitional sense, […]

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June 13, 2019June 13, 2019therippleeffect70x7

Betrayal, the Gift that Keeps on Giving

There is a reason people don’t stay together after a betrayal, every day is a constant reminder of the dirty deed. Whether you are the betrayer or betrayed its ever-present and only a moment from escalating any situation. Today I was reminded of my deed of shame, its like a knife that’s permanently stuck in […]

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May 7, 2019May 7, 2019therippleeffect70x7

Seasons Change

I received the letter and avoided the phone call concerning the pathology results from my colonoscopy. My polyps were precancerous, they were caught in time and therefor didn’t develop to their full potential. Thats good news; the only downside is my new schedule for testing, it has been moved up to every 3 years. Next […]

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February 8, 2019February 10, 2019therippleeffect70x7

“So-Called” Psychiatric Care

Yesterday morning I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. Well, if you can call disinterested, mocking, dismissive, uncaring, and an excuse filled ten minutes as actual Psychiatric care. My wife came along to interject her observations, she is concerned and wanted to offer her view-point. She got little more than a once of respect and […]

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December 28, 2017February 4, 2018therippleeffect70x7

this is why..

People kill themselves. There is nothing worth living for, more specifically, there isn’t enough good to outweigh the incredible pain. I totally get it. The psychiatrist doesn’t care, he gives you another med and says see a therapist. The process of even looking for a therapist is daunting and intimidating, and you are in no […]

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December 5, 2017therippleeffect70x7

Bipolar Signs…

If this were a criminal investigation, the research would be starting to reveal the truth. As I analyze the data and look at the evidence, a clearer picture is developing. In the daily, grind it out story of a life, are the signs one is expecting to discover. People having a manic episode may: People […]

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October 25, 2017October 26, 2017therippleeffect70x7

My Shrinking Life

We are all born into a whole world of possibilities, they lie right there before each of us. I am among the most privileged when it comes to my race and country of origin, and I also possess some amount of gifting and talents which were at one time the fulcrum on which my future […]

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  • The River December 18, 2019
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  • Is There Something I should Be Doing? December 3, 2019
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  • You? I? November 11, 2019
  • Why is it…? November 11, 2019
  • Split Seconds November 11, 2019
  • Guilt-free Relaxation November 6, 2019
  • When You’re Tired of Running October 29, 2019
  • Seclusion October 24, 2019
  • Stand Still October 18, 2019
  • In The Shadows October 17, 2019
  • Fading Into Oblivion October 11, 2019
  • Lost My Motivation October 4, 2019
  • Pardon my Faux Pas September 30, 2019
  • Returning to a Civilized Existence September 30, 2019
  • The Art of the Deposition September 28, 2019
  • Coming to a Close September 24, 2019
  • The Burden September 23, 2019
  • Words September 22, 2019
  • Self-Destruct September 21, 2019
  • My Flaw to this Point September 20, 2019
  • The Failure of the Mental Health System September 19, 2019
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  • I am Sad Today September 16, 2019
  • Mental Health Documentary September 16, 2019
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  • The Music was Silenced September 12, 2019
  • The Memorial that Moves Forward September 11, 2019
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  • Lets Briefly Talk about Suicide September 9, 2019
  • The Beginning of the Journey September 9, 2019
  • The Unknown September 7, 2019
  • Update #…I don’t Know! September 6, 2019
  • Hope of Life September 4, 2019
  • Back in the Saddle September 2, 2019
  • Update August 30, 2019
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  • When Depression Descends August 27, 2019
  • Too Many Chances? August 26, 2019
  • The Core August 25, 2019
  • Existentialimits August 23, 2019
  • My (our) New Normal August 22, 2019
  • A Very Important Thank You August 21, 2019
  • Whom am I Trying to Convince? August 21, 2019
  • Mitigating Circumstances August 21, 2019
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  • Read This Article, Excellent! August 5, 2019
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  • Mental Illness is Real! August 5, 2019
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  • The Consistency of Inconsistency August 3, 2019
  • A Series of Unrelated Thoughts-my Apologies in Advance! August 1, 2019
  • Paranoia Kills August 1, 2019
  • No August 1, 2019
  • Airport Therapy July 31, 2019
  • 267.5 July 30, 2019
  • 30% July 30, 2019
  • Am I Entertaining You? July 29, 2019
  • Living Inside a Bubble July 29, 2019
  • The Nagging Feeling July 28, 2019
  • Euroclydon July 26, 2019
  • Flying July 26, 2019
  • News Flash! July 25, 2019
  • You Stole My Love July 25, 2019
  • In Your Neighborhood July 25, 2019
  • Wrapping Up July 23, 2019
  • In the Balance July 19, 2019
  • Back in for Treatment July 16, 2019
  • Justifying Mental Disease July 16, 2019
  • What’s The Point? July 12, 2019
  • Ever-present July 8, 2019
  • Sorry, but No Forgiveness For You! July 8, 2019
  • Choose Wisely, Grasshopper July 1, 2019
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  • the rip[ple] effect June 27, 2019
  • Unexplainable June 26, 2019
  • This is No Life June 25, 2019
  • There’s Nothing Worse June 24, 2019
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  • I am Not a failure, but that doesn’t Make me OK June 21, 2019
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  • When You’re Right June 18, 2019
  • Understanding June 17, 2019
  • Conflicted June 14, 2019
  • Betrayal, the Gift that Keeps on Giving June 13, 2019
  • Not inherently Positive June 13, 2019
  • Continuation June 13, 2019
  • Maine becomes 8th state to legalize assisted suicide June 12, 2019
  • I Shoulda Stopped Chewing on those Guitar Knobs June 12, 2019
  • Why I Left The Church June 12, 2019
  • Al Mohler: The Humiliation of the Southern Baptist Convention June 12, 2019
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  • Living in the Age of Feelings June 11, 2019
  • In The Moment June 10, 2019
  • Cadet’s rape conviction reversal panned by victim advocates June 8, 2019
  • Petra only got half way There June 7, 2019
  • Thankful for… June 5, 2019
  • When it all Falls Apart June 5, 2019

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